For years I’ve been uncomfortable talking about my health. I’ve felt confused, embarrassed, helpless, in shock and ashamed – until now.
2 1/2 years ago my life changed when I suddenly starting experiencing chronic pain in my pelvis and lower abdomen. It has since affected every part of my life, personally and professionally. I’m hoping that by sharing my experiences, this blog may become a platform for anyone dealing with similar circumstances to connect. I really look forward to gaining any insights from others too!
My entire life I’d been relatively healthy and super active. I swam, surfed, hiked, biked you name it. All with no problems until June of 2014. After an “off” time in my life, I had begun a really intense workout routine accompanied by a clean eating meal plan, determined to tone up. I pushed myself extremely hard for approx. 10 days when I suddenly felt a sharp pain within my pelvis. The pain was something similar to a UTI (urinary tract infection) and I thought it was not a big deal and would be fixed in no time. I went to the doctor twice in that week following the sharp pain and nothing was found, no diagnosis was made, and the doctors refused to “treat anything they couldn’t see”. Turned away, I simply lived with the pain for about a week until one evening I was home from work, standing at the stove in the midst of cooking a deliciously clean meal when I felt something burst in my abdomen. I instantly felt a heated shock run through my body. My abdomen became immediately swollen with excruciating pain. I could no longer stand yet sitting was utterly unbearable. All I could do was lie down.
This pain was nothing I’d ever experienced in my life. I couldn’t even explain the sensations happening in my body. Although I didn’t know what had happened, I would never have guessed my life was about to change so drastically.
From that day forward, I continued to experience variations of this pain every single day. I began a 2 1/2 year long journey of visits with doctors and specialists in every field, countless treatments and procedures with absolutely no diagnosis or explanation of pain to date, and racked up thousands of dollars in medical debt. The pain continued to shift in my body and created new symptoms and sensations. After countless times of responding to family, friends and doctors with “What’s happening to me is really weird. The pain is really hard to explain…”, I’ve had to focus on studying and analyzing the details of the pain to even begin to describe what I’m feeling.
I’ve come across some very disturbing encounters as well as some helpful tidbits during this time. The fact still remains that as of today, I am in that same boat I was in Jun of 2014 when this happened to me overnight – constant chronic pain with no cure in sight.
As defeated as I feel some days, I refuse to let this define me. Although it has affected every aspect of my life, I am now empowered with the idea of taking control, navigating this situation and bringing awareness to others who have been dealing with this alongside me OR educating those who have never heard of such a thing. I continue to live my life as positive as possible focusing on travel, fashion, music, fitness and the alchemy of wellness and happiness on the way to my cure.
This is a very brief overview of my story. There are much more posts, stories, pieces of information and advice to come. Have you experienced or do you know anyone with similar symptoms? Or if you have health stories you’d like to share, please do! You’re in fab company here.